It’s been awhile since I have checked into this space. Life has been….well….life ha!
Some of you might know we lost Bam on January 21. That has been incredibly difficult. He was 16 years old. He had an amazing, adventurous, healthy life. I mean he spent his golden years traveling the US with his family!
I’m thankful it wasn’t a long, drawn out, painful end. He was fine, until 2 weeks before his passing. He declined really fast and that’s the way we hoped for him. The day of his passing we knew he was very sick, likely having strokes so we were discussing if we should put him down or give him a little more time. He got out of his bed, walked a few steps and fell right between us and couldn’t get up. We took it as a sign that the 3 of us made the decision together. I have peace about it.
Every day has gotten a little more bearable but to really be honest, I’m not sure if I’ll ever stop missing him. My heart aches. I recently read somewhere that you may never get over it, but you can get past it. That resonated with me.
I have peace he’s running around in heaven with his friends and that we’ll be reunited one day. And you guys! His eyes work again! ❤
During the time Bam’s health was declining, my 94 year old grandma & some other family members got the “C” word. Thankfully they have since recovered, but they were incredibly sick for a long time. I was stressed out and felt so helpless, but very relieved they are well now.
I’m still struggling with post concussion symptoms. Going to doctors, specialists, acupuncture & physical therapy has been exhausting. In the last week I finally started to feel small, incremental changes in the right direction. Crossing my fingers this is the road to recovery, because it.has.been.a.road. Lemme tell ya.
I’ve been walking our friends 2 dogs, Gumbo & Roux. They are the happiest, sweetest dogs ever. Roux is 2 and Gumbo is an 11. Roux runs super fast and she’s so sweet she slows down so Gumbo can chase her at his pace. ❤ They have been the best therapy since losing Bam.
In the last week or so, I have come to the realization this brain injury is much more complex than I thought. Right after the accident my doctor said I should recover in 10-14 days, but other professionals who are actually treating me warned it could be more like 18-24 months. I wasn’t thinking clearly back then, so I honestly didn’t think too much of it being that long of a recovery. We’re about 90 days post accident and I am still not even close to being back to normal. Not sure if I’ll ever go back to the way I was before, but I have hope with the right treatment/professionals I can at least function in daily life and go back to work.
My perspective has changed a lot within the last week. I’m searching for ways to help my brain heal and calm down the nervous system. Along with vision issues, my brain goes into sensory overload very fast, and with normal life. It doesn’t take much at all to send it into overdrive. So that’s something I’m currently working on as well. My acupuncturist mentioned I should learn something new to use a different part of my brain. What a wonderful idea! So I’m thinking of new things I want to learn. If you have any ideas, please send them my way.
Okay well I’ve been looking at this screen too long, so I’m going to call it a day.
*I wrote this post over a week ago and forgot to post it. So much has changed. I’ll fill you in on my next post.
What is something new you recently learned?
How has life been lately?